All winter long, I had this mental image of me emerging in the spring in beast mode. Like I was going to train through the ice and snow (which I did!) and I was going to come rocketing out like a cannon ball. That did not happen. I am still tired. I still can’t run fast. Sigh.
The two races that were supposed to be my “big comeback” races were disappointing. They kind of just showed me how far I had to go to be anywhere near where I was in March 2015. But. I did two races. I hadn’t raced since Monster Dash 5K in October.
Downside stuff… My Raynaud’s Syndrome seems to be getting worse. My hands are freezing. And even though I am tired and feel like I can never get enough sleep, I wake up in the middle of the night and am unable to go back to sleep. (I had briefly tried a sleep aid awhile ago, but Ambien made me hallucinate and I didn’t dig on that at all). Research tells me that waking up at 3 a.m. may be due to adrenal gland issues, which I already know I have. And the increase in Raynaud’s, along with the adrenals, could mean something called Addison’s Disease. On the other hand, a couple people with Lyme Disease said my symptoms sound much like theirs. And since I am a trail runner, and have gotten my fair share of ticks, this could be a possibility, too.
My endocrinologist has referred me to KU for more specialized care. The nursing staff told me that KU has such a long wait list because they are considered to be the very best in the area. It could be 3-4 weeks before I even hear back from KU to set an appointment. (And who knows how far out that could be). But I am really encouraged by this. I really feel like if anyone can piece the rest of this together, KU can.
I am running consistently. I have found I can’t do hill repeats or much speedwork because the minute my heart rate goes up, I bonk. Lots of long, slow running for me. I am enjoying taking Bowie out running with me again. And am excited about breaking out my bicycle since it has been warm enough to start riding.
Oh, and I lost a little more weight. I am down 10 pounds now since I stopped the old meds. I really hope hope hope that when we get everything figured out, my metabolism will come back and the weight will magically fall off. Ha. Yeah. I know that won’t happen. But it is happening at a snail’s pace now and it is just really hard to keep seeing pictures of myself and wondering, what the heck? It makes me feel ashamed and I know people have to be wondering, “why did she get so fat?” Then again, if they are thinking that, they are probably jerks anyway.
- Impaired Memory
- Sensitivity to Cold
- Ridges in Nails
Weight: 163 pounds